At 16, during the summer (again!) in New York, where I went for the International Young Scientist Fortnight to which I had been invited, I had what I consider to be my first (and more or less last) real ‘voluntary’ gay relation. I say so because for the first time I did it on purpose (because I expected some advantages and probably also because I wanted to punish myself with anal creampie). I did not liked that anal creampie at all and I was treated like a slut, and now I believe that is probably directly because of that poker game at 12 that I was led to accepting that and because that feeling of culpability. The humiliation was particularly intense because I did not liked at all what I had accepted to do. During the same period, I had more traditional relations with girl friends that helped me avoiding commiting suicide to save my honour.
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At 16/17 back at home, I had several girlfriends, with quite frequent lovemaking outdoor, mostly in town, alongside the river, on terrace…it led to some very bad results in the bus. I was also masturbated through a peephole in a large store, not knowing by whom, while my girlfriend was making shopping. I renewed this experience as much as possible! It was such a thrill! During the summer of my 17, I made an incredible hitchhiking trip without any money, as part of my traditional education (my parents never knew how well I was educated!). In each place I was looking for a place to sleep and asking for dinner. Of course some were abusing their position, but I was also enjoying. I also learned that not every place has the same type of fantasy, but that when they have the opportunity to really realise their phantasms, few people can resist. At 17 also, I was studying so much that I did not much as far as sex is concerned. But as I was very tired and as I could not release easily my anal creampie appetites, I made some perverse things, just being mad of the tension. Not even dare to describe.
At 18, I changed of district, and established myself in a very busy place, where everything is permit. I lived with my future wife (already: I believed that it was the best way to get at least into a ‘regular’ anal creampie life!). Things were not easy at all. She was very “independent”. Thanks to god, I had relations with a submissive more traditional Japanese girl (we used always a cushion to make love!), which helped me a lot to regain confidence in me. But I the same time, I started accepting the decisions of my girlfriend, which I finished to marry at 19 (nearly 20). You already know how went the wedding night. I forgot to say that she took pictures of it as a “memory”. I don’t need pictures to remember the anal creampie!